Of Success and Failure

This week has been a hard week for me. From one project failure to project rejection from people whom I looked up to and trusted.

I have been very weary and close to giving up. Actually, I tried giving up, and momentarily shut down. I was very close of breaking and burning out. So close that a friend of mine asked me to take a rest and cool down; until my mom asked me to give up one or two and stay focus of my long term dream. 

I could feel my ambivalence, but my spirit turned all the woes away thinking of my goals, and dreams. I tried re-evaluating and taking control of matters I could tangibly hold at hand. In a time being, it worked but in the long run, I realized that I am no longer taking care of myself holistically. 

Of Failures

In a social development work, rejection is your shadow. This is what I learned when I was visiting and inviting participants for our campaign and mentorship. No matter how great our intentions are, only a few accepts us in the community.

As a project coordinator, patience should be my weapon against rejection, and disappointments. I guess, the greatest rejection came when a pilot mentorship was asked to stop because of the lack of a trainer to carry on the sessions. It did not only reflect the kind of leader I am but it affected my organization where I am working in. That was the greatest heartache I have felt and carried until this time. I know I can move on from these failures but I nees time to processing and redirect myself.

Of Sucess

Amidst all these disappointments, failures, and rejections clouding me over the week, I saw that silver lining. Indeed, there is a rainbow after the rain and the thunderstorms because I received one of the greatest gifts and announcements I have been longing and waiting for.

First, I would no longer be teaching IELTS but I am moved to a Senior Carer Training which could brush up my Nursing skills and knowledge. Yet, the best thing I had heard from my employer was my Certificate of Sponsorship for my UK Visa. Although I needed to clarify, he finally offered my CoS.

I should say that from all of my failures, rejections and disappointments I have received, a little step forward to progress my UK dream is finally moving me to get there. I know that this is just the beginning, but I would never again consider of giving up my dreams and aspirations.

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